Archive for September, 2011

I need no reminders about why aspects of my life suck so much right now. If you feel the need to remind me, please refrain – no comments on my out and about, or lack there of; none on my job or my hours; none on my income or my location. I think I have had enough. I didn’t ask for this. I am making it work, as best as I can. I don’t need any more hurdles than I have. There is enough heart ache without your reminders and thoughtless efforts for improvement. You are not pushing me forward,  you are holding me back. The frustration eats me alive sometimes, and I drown in my own tears; and I would hear you, but my ears are bleeding cotton to muffle your critique. I am strong, strong enough; but sometimes I am weak. You that dose not walk with me has no right and no room to berate me. I do not ask you to make concessions. I do not ask you to sympathize or empathize or even give a damn. But carry forth the notion that your words of wisdom are hollow and fall on stuffed ears. I hear not what you say when you speak from selfishness, but I feel the ignorance, the non-experience, I taste the residue of your argument as it dissolves in the air I breathe. Fill your mouth with your pills of wisdom, and put your feet in my beat up size 6′s, set your alarm and arm your self with energy, when it’s over, and you found your peace of mind and the money for the sitter we’ll celebrate with the libations of trial and error. Error and trial… understand that, this is that. That is this. It is not all so bad, it is not all so good. I need not darkness to darken my own. Bring me light or let me shine alone.